The Teacher Is Within
Wednesday, February 29th, 2012A few months ago, I wrote a piece for “Recovering Yogi” joking that Anusara — one of the fastest growing styles of yoga in the U.S. — was experiencing an apocalypse because a few of its master teachers had left the fold. My jest may have been prophetic, according to the social media buzz of the past few weeks.
What once appeared to be a victorious expanding yoga empire has seemingly lost its support system and is collapsing inelegantly. When I recently wrote about Anusara, I commented on the grand exodus of three of its most senior teachers as breaking news in that tight-knit community (which, for full disclosure, I must tell you that I have been a part of in the past). With their teachers fleeing the fold left and right, reactions from students ranged from unyielding support (“You will always be a my teacher!”) to enraged bewilderment (“Why have you left us?”).
Then, a few weeks ago, John Friend, the founder of Anusara, confirmed accusations of sexual misconduct, financial corruption, drug use and sexual misuse of power. Since then, the number of certified teachers that have handed in their resignations has skyrocketed. Still, the most devout Anusara-lovers blindly defend their leader and their style of yoga. It’s like watching people go through the five stages of grief right before our eyes: It might sound callous to say this, but somewhere along the line, way too much stock has been put into John Friend, who, after all, is just a mortal. The tricky thing with yoga is that these teachers are not only teaching a physical activity, but one that is associated closely with philosophy and ethics. Historical yoga texts mention the yamas and niyamas as being paramount to asana. In fact, asana is just one of the Eight Limbs… a stepping-stone on the way to enlightenment. Students, understandably, expect their teachers to practice the philosophical aspect of yoga – but many simultaneously develop an unhealthy devotion towards their teachers. Why? Where does this start? Is it the students’ doing or the teachers’? There is definitely a type of personality that readily gives up their power to another. But there is also a clever manipulation of philosophy, paired with charisma, that some teachers use to assert their power over others. A friend’s life coach would lure in her students by telling them she was the only person who could “wake them up,” and if they didn’t agree with what she said, it was “the ego interfering.” People craving peace, acceptance and community throw money, time and dignity at those promising to deliver… and an unhealthy relationship develops. In the end, I can only comment on my personal experience with Anusara and its teachers. One thing that stuck out to me throughout my own teacher training was the saying “Your greatest teacher is within.” A lot of responsibility comes with this concept, which is probably why many choose to instead give over that responsibility to someone else. Regardless, I cherish this saying, and I appreciate the few teachers who have really given me the space to nurture that belief in myself. I believe there shouldn’t be an imbalanced relationship between teachers and students; rather, a mutual respect, a sharing of information, and then a parting of ways. We students need to figure out for ourselves how to integrate the information we learn in our training, and the only way to do so is by stumbling, walking or soaring out of that classroom so that we can grow, independently. Otherwise, we will continue to outsource our power. This is also why I believe teachers must always remain students. We are organic beings — continuously shifting, growing, changing — so what resonates with us will also transform us. I’ve always been skeptical of any practice that was overly simplified and finite. The human body, let alone the mind, is an incredibly sophisticated instrument. Scientists admit that the more they know, the more they realize they don’t know. So why would we, as yogis, trust in one teacher so completely that his undoing unravels us? For me, this whole Anusara scandal has been a reminder to once again check in with the only teacher I know I can truly trust: myself.
























